The mind journey

I was just reading the WW forums and came across a lass that had written how bad she was feeling another lady had written a lovely post in reply which made me think about how my thoughts of myself have changed. When I first started this journey I wore board shorts with my bathers to do aquarobics, the thought of anyone seeing my legs horrified me, then one day I woke up and realised who gives a flying toss these are my legs deal with it and I have no more board shorts in fact I gave them to the salvos with the rest of the clothes that now longer fit. I had a conversation with a board short wearing friend about me not wearing board shorts anymore and how these are my legs who cares what anyone else thinks, she agreed I had a good point and she no longer wears them!!! I no longer think negatively about myself at all I look at all the positives which is what I do with all things in my life apart from myself funny that is it. I'm not saying they don't pop into my head when I'm looking at myself nude in the mirror but I focus on the fact that I know have a waist or I no longer have a double chin or I actually have a bum until it drowns out the negative. Anyway I just wanted to share how my mind has changed in the short time Ive been doing WW.
I don't know how I will go at weigh in this week its ttom so my scales have stayed the same at home my food has been good and exercise has just been swimming and aqua again since my ankle still isn't right hopefully Ill get a walk in today if this rain holds off fingers crossed.
I have decided to go back to full time work starting the 17th November I'm very excited Ive been busy trying to get all the paper work for the childcare benefit and rebate sorted so Thomas can start on the 10th November to give him time to settle in and so Ill be available to pick him up if he gets in to a real state. I went there yesterday to ask a few more questions and ended up leaving him there to have lunch, a sleep and play and of course he loved it when I went to put him in the car after picking him up he kept pointing at the place like he wanted to go back in hahahah so I don't think we will have to much trouble with him settling in. I think the main problem will be dropping him off in a good mood at 630 in the morning he usually wakes up at 8 so it will be interesting.
Anyway better go have some lunch and put Thomas to bed for his nap

Random Stuff

I was thinking about changing my goal weight I have it at 80kg which still has me in the overweight category to be just in the healthy weight range I have to be 72kg so I was thinking that might be more acceptable for WW standards. The reason I chose 80kg was that I have never been skinny nor do really have a desire to be I just want to be strong and healthy and the last time I remember being like that was at 80kg. Maybe Ill leave it at 80kg and see how I feel when I get there.
I was talking to my mother in law yesterday (she also does WW but goes on the weekend with my sister in law) she asked how much I lost this week so I told her 3.6kg she called me a biatch and told me she couldn't understand how I can lose that much considering I don't go without anything, I told her I make the points system work for me, well she couldn't argue with that hahahahaha. My SIL and MIL are having a real hard time losing their weight my MIL finally got her 5kg before we left for Bali but put back on a kilo so she said she wants to lose that first before she gets her bookmark she also doesn't exercise although she says she is starting shallow aquarobics tonight. My SIL has a thyroid problem and goes up and down in weight sometimes up by 3 kilo in a single week, she also has fluid issues and some days doesn't eat nearly enough as she is working she is a midwife (well that's the excuse she uses). So I think they are a little jealous of my weight coming off so easily at the moment although I do remind them I exercise a lot whenever they say an off handed remark.
I have started to feel lighter finally, I have been waiting to feel different and yesterday finally I felt it, it being able to run after Thomas and feel like I'm a pebble (I would say feather but not quite there yet) not a huge boulder and I'm liking it a lot. I cant wait to get under 100kg now!!!
I forgot to write yesterday that I was looking into doing tap dancing lessons how cool Ive always wanted to be a dancer unfortunately I have to wait for next years school term to start I'm so excited if will be so much fun I have no rhythm at all so it will be funny. So hurry up next year!!!
Its crap weather here today so I think I may be running in the rain hopefully it might clear up
by this afternoon.
Tootaloo for today

Weigh In Number 14

Well I had a huge loss this week 3.6 to be exact so now its a total of 23.6 yay!!!!!!!! Our WW leader said I am the best loser she has ever seen!!! and that was before I told her of my 3.6kg loss this week she was gobsmacked when I finally told her. So I'm down to 106kg now 2kg off what I was in 2002. I'm so proud of myself and how far Ive come I cant imagine how proud of myself Ill be when I get to goal. I also achieved what I wanted to be at the end of November so I'm still a month ahead of schedule wooohoooo!! and Ive decided that I want to have lost 30kg by the time I go to Tassie/ Adelaide on the 12th of December so I have 6 weeks to lose 6.4 kilos very doable as long as i don't hit a plateau
I think my huge weight loss this week was because I drank loads of water Ive figured out my bubba gump cup holds 500ml so I only have to drink 4 of those a day and I'm set, anymore than its a bonus.
I didn't get around to starting my C25K last week because I twisted my ankle twirling Thomas around so it was just swimming and aquarobics but I'm planning on starting it tomorrow.
Well better go clean the house tornado Thomas has been through
tootaloo

Bali Photos

Beach outside hotel More beach
Thomas and his girlfriend
Loads of mopeds it was exactly the same on the other side
Bubba Gumps Resturant My favourite YumYum

Me and Thomas this is one of the best photos of me in ages pity about Thomas's face haha
Thomas, Adam and Poppy hanging out
Pool view from our room
The other view from our room

Weigh In Number 13

I put on .8 on my two weeks holiday how great is that!!! and the best thing I have still lost 20kg. So back into it all now I went to aqua last night and did a few laps, the pool was freezing and I seriously wanted to go home but I realised it was an excuse so me- 1 excuses- 0.

I got my athletes foot shoes before I flew out to Bali here they are

They are so comfy but for the amount I paid for them I suppose they should be. I'm starting the c25k again tonight so excited to test out my shoes. My hubby forgot to bring his camera cord from work so no Bali pictures( we took his work camera) hopefully tomorrow. Well I best be going got to get house ready for inspection tomorrow.

Tootaloo

I'm Back

Well I'm back yay!!!! I'm happy to be home and back into my own routine and my own cooking.
Now to the important stuff well I didn't get my goal of losing weight in Bali, I put on but not very much under a kilo I think, I have weigh in today so Ill come back later with the results. As soon as we got to our resort I realise it was going to be very hard most of the food there was food I don't like such as rice and satays so I did my best with what choices I had. The pool was an odd shape so I couldn't swim real laps but again I did my best. I did lots of walking (and sweating!!) when we went into Kuta, I was hoping to be able to walk outside our hotel (we were in Benoa) but it was too dangerous with a pram.
We had a great time Thomas loved having his dad and poppy around which gave me a fabulous break, we did plenty of shopping and relaxing and at times to many cocktails hehehe.
So straight back into my exercise routine tonight with deep water pump and some laps I'm really looking forward to it.
I wasn't going to go to my WW meeting today I thought Id give myself a week to lose the extra few 100g but I don't want to miss a meeting plus I'm proud of the fact I haven't put on a huge amount in my two weeks away. Hopefully Thomas will behave this time the last time I had to take him he played up a treat I had to leave mind you the meeting is timed when he is meant to be sleeping.
Anyway Ill back later
tootaloo